As the world shifts into fall, I shift back into what I used to be before I met Ed. I'm really not sure if I did what was right.. it being the frist real realationship I have had that I acutally seriously dumped the person in. I feel really akward about it.. Like I should hate him cause he was a jack ass to me today.. but how I should still love him cause well, I did/do or something still. I'm just really confused about the whole thing. I really did need a break.. and then, well, I just pushed it over the edge.. I feel happier seeing all my friends and being me, well being the single me.. Who knows, we'll all find out together.
My work is freaking awesome. Snider is by far one of the best people I know. He's so amazing. Ahaha, so funny. I got pulled over for not having my lights on. No ticket, just got told I was stupid. Orgy is coming to play at our venue.. Its going to be wierd, but cool. I actually get paid to not do all that much. i just have to go in at 12 and clean up and make the venue look good and stuff. Nicks ganna come down too, I hope Mikey does.. soo cute, wish that we could have dated.. we're bolth single now, maybe it could happen. I wish!!
Schools been allright, I guess. Just school, Im kinda falling behind in english but thats about it.. I just, cant read when I'm forced to. It's more of a reason to not read.. for me anyway. But my english teacher is freaking hillarious. She challanged me that I couldn't look preppy for a day. That I couldn't pull it off. So, of course, I took the challange.. and well, we'll see how it goes on Tuesday. Man, I think I'm kinda falling for Dakota too.. but I don't think that I could EVER have a chance with that.
Last night was pretty eventful. Shaina has a boyfriend that is freaking adorable, and like.. perfect.. she's just doing the Shaina thing and dramatizing it. Nichole, silly her, also has found a perfect cute skater boy for herself.. I think Ness has found one too.. and well.. Serina jsut found some jelly.. ahahaha. I sulked.. Oh, and the cops almost gave us all sitations for underage drinking. It was soo awesome, lemme tell ya.. But yea, Im really.. not sure if I like hanging out with all those boys and stuff, but Im going to have to deal.. cause well. Shaina's dating one and she's on of THE GIRLS. so I mean.. we can't just cut her out.. Oh man.. that would suck. But yea. I'm just.. feeling better, more free. I just.. want someone to always be there when I need it.. and a booty buddy.. you always need one of those.
I'm getting my lip pireced again.. bolth sides of the bottom lip. Its ganna be hawt. My family is going to hate it.. my grandparents are going to hate me.. same with all my family, but oh well.. what can they do about it other then disown me or.. um, yell? I can take yelling cause they all stop sooner or later, but the disowning well.. that would suck HARDCORE BALLS.Hrmpf.. Serina is getting her nipples done.. which is cool. I like that she's kinda crawling out of her coward shell that she hid in from her aunt. I think its alot more healthy for her.. but yea..
My eyes are starting to buldge.. oh, and bronchial phnemonia SUCKS!!!
I think its time to play in your blood.